Adjusting to this sense of calm and peacefulness despite observing the unpredictable storm around me, has been interesting. It’s as if my sense of trust and surrender in the Universe is coming more naturally and without effort. Despite all of the things I see around me that would seek to shake my focus and remove […]
The hands of the clock seem to pick up speed as the countdown to the end of what has been and the beginning of something new, approaches. The day has almost arrived. I had known it would come but now that it is nearly upon me, it seems as though it had crept silently in the […]
My dreams lately have been a hurricane of bizarre, scrambled formations of thought, feeling and concepts that my mind and soul desperately seem to be trying to piece-together and reconcile. The result is thought and feeling from the distant past, merging with my current reality while borrowing elements of a future my mind has reached from […]
The leaves fall once again and as I sit and watch the golden parade of color, I can’t help but contemplate all that has changed in this last year for me. It has been monumental. Filled with both tragedy and pain but also love and growth. It often takes hardship and struggles to ignite change […]
I want to. I’d love to…. Begin each day with joyful colour. Taste the morning light with you by my side. Savour it’s every moment. Get lost in the forever of your eyes. Words no longer useful because we communicate beyond them. Gentle passion. Ferocious love. Come closer and let the world fade away. Refuge from all that […]
I can feel it again. A changing within me. Not something new but rather a continuation of evolution that had already begun but had been halted by the past many weeks. Fear somehow slipped back into my life unnoticed as I began to spiral downward. I was completely caught off guard. I had no resolve. […]
Another night of no sleep. *sigh* I suppose I should be grateful that I’m at round three of trying to quit smoking. This is my third attempt in the last month. I usually make it 3 or 4 days before slipping back. Hopefully that won’t be the case this time. It’s just become so mentally, […]
Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. It’s mildly terrifying. I’m filled with both a focused optimism and a fair amount of alarming doubt. Regardless, I’m here now in this situation for what it is and every thought, feeling and decision is going to make or break me. Have you ever […]
I’ve come so far in the last couple months and especially in these last 30 days, I don’t even know where to begin. I quit smoking cold turkey which is nothing short of miracle. I’ve been going to the gym and running regularly for almost six weeks now. I’ve been making more money at work […]
Wow times flies… I spent most of this summer working like a maniac at my most least favourite job of all time. Hate to say it but this summer sucked. I was miserable big time. I could hardly even find the motivation to pick up my guitar. That’s usually a good indicator of my state […]