I can feel it again. A changing within me. Not something new but rather a continuation of evolution that had already begun but had been halted by the past many weeks. Fear somehow slipped back into my life unnoticed as I began to spiral downward. I was completely caught off guard. I had no resolve. […]
I feel like I can stay above the surface as long as I keep my eyes focused on my objective but the moment I look at the storm surrounding me, I begin to sink. A famous story and now one I’m seeing first hand in relevance to my own life. I’ve tried so hard lately […]
I blogged a lot when I was younger using Xanga but as the blogging online became much more evolved through mediums such as WordPress and others, Xanga became obsolete and I didn’t have the patience to become acquainted with new blogging software. Then a beautiful thing happened where Xanga archived all my posts from all […]
I realized something the other day that hit me pretty hard. You always know a realization is good when it’s got some kick to it. Unfortunately though, the kick does hurt, even if it is enlightening. See I had this idea in my head of the most wonderful place I could possibly imagine. I could […]
I never wanted to admit that my abuse of something so frequently over the years, would eventually take a tremendous toll on my body, mind and life. For as long as I can remember I’ve shrugged it off as something that I hadn’t done enough to be worried about it. I thought to myself that […]
I think I’m finally ready to set sail… Through a strangers eyes I take a good look at my lifeOnly to find that I’m not livingI’m not alive I want to live to tell the taleI want to wake up before my ship sets sailDon’t want to try to be anyone elseI just want to […]
what happened to before? I don’t think I’ve ever been this confused in regards to what direction my life should take right now. Everything is so up in the air. Nothing is as satisfying as it used to be. Things I used to take comfort in now disgust me. Even if my habits were unhealthy, […]
I’m being a fool. The ability to make the right choices is an acquired skill that is harder then it seems to apply to your life. It comes from all the past mistakes you made and the realization of what the right choice should’ve been. Although by making mistakes you are also learning what not […]
Sometimes I really and truly hate myself. My negligence, my inability to generally make the right choices, and my procrastination are just a few of the qualities I’ve found not just surfacing, but ruling the waters of my life these days. Right now I have a chance to do something great and I feel like […]
Choked.Suppressed.Stuck. Never have I been as ready to move onto something new.Change was something I once feared, now it is something that I crave. Tied down.Held back.Not moving. The moment I fulfill the promise I made I’m out of here.First chance I get, I’ll leave.In my head, I’m already gone. Limited.Guilt tripped.Sucked back in. Like […]