It only goes to prove how true the saying is…that the world is a constantly changing place and until we learn to accept change, we will never be happy. and after all, when you think about it, that’s what were all after. everything we do is leading us to our ultimate desire and we alll know what our ultimate desire is.
listening to old music leads me to reminise in older times. times where friendships and relationships that are no longer exisistant, once thrived. but it’s not even like it matters anymore anyways. whats done is done, that’s it. you will never be able to go back to how things once were. I’m still having trouble coming to terms with that fact.
do I miss younger days? yes. in fact I spend more time then I should wishing for things to have never changed…but the reality is that they did, and theres nothing I can do about it. I was never meant to continue with certain relationships in my life. I was never meant to have this last job that I got fired from, for long. I was never meant to move to Calgary at this point in my life. things are playing out exactly as they were meant to, whether I realize that or not.
I have little or no regrets because I believe that every choice I made and everything that happened gave me experience, insight, wisdom and maturity…it gave me something to learn from. my biggest regret was that I could not force myself to love someone and now it’s too late. but I suppose because of that, it wasn’t meant to be either. on the other side of memory lane is the one person who I wanted so bad, but could never have and when I reached that realization, I also realized that it was not that person, it was simply the feelings I had for that person that made everything such a big deal. I realize now, it was never meant to be. amazing how blinding love truly is.
ps. I’m glad you care.
I want to be happy and thats it. it doesn’t matter if I’m rich or poor, smart or stupid, as long as I’m happy I am content. the only way to remain happy is to find the positive within all aspects of life, including the negative.
despite my understanding of how things will never be as they once were, I still crave for them to be…and that my friends, will be my downfall.
Victor
no matter how tough things get and whatever life throws at you man, you will always be able to push through and make it out on top. there is nothing that you can’t handle. everything happens for a reason, for a greater and deeper purpose that we might not yet understand. life will take you to place you never thought you would go. some places you wish you never went and some place that are where you want to be. like a song will echo a memory in your life so will things bring you back to what used to be. but you shouldn’t dwell on the past. you should focus on the present and plan for the future. what’s done is done and the only way to carry on is to not look back. out of all of this I know you will become a stronger and more mature person. you might not see it, but this whole thing has made you take a closer look at yourself and who you really are. you yourself have come to your own realization and right now both you and moneen are asking yourselves “are we really happy with who we are right now?”. only you know the answer to that question my friend. perhaps this time of change is more so for the better then for the worse. play some vids, take a nap, yell as loud as you can, play some music, listen to some music, go for a walk, go for a drive, punch a mattress, wrestle steve, take a shot and then…do what you have to do.
hey brandon, how r u? havn’t talked to you in a while, how’s life going by the way?
read the beginning of your entry and i must say that i totally agree with that…so yea, comment me back when you get the chance.
peace out
~Aaliyah
Well Brandon it seems you put alot of thought into this entry. uhh it’s 805 already I must go eat and then go to class for a bit boo. Call me tonight/today if your not up to anything parents are going out sooo I’m going to be up to nothing! Come hang out and see the wedding pictures and such kk
have a good one.
your friend always Lisa 😉
i am going to need all of those pictures sent to me..
haha yea! Kev Dreger is a pretty good buddy of mine too! haha nice of you to say hi, being a friend of a friend and all!
well good post i must admit, got me to do some thinking. i think you quoted me in one of those paragraphs, and if you dont recall means your dumb, jk of course. anyways yes i liked this post and have many thoughts. reality is slowly settleing in, and i guess its what it is. have a good day
why hasn’t anyone commented on my nakedness?
ya true, it has been getting harder to pull through when i try to help everyone else, but the thing is im scared that if i dont then no one else will,a nd i dont want that to happen. cause i dont want them to have the same lonly feeling i do. I hope this sadness dosent last forever. none of this is fair, my friends shouldnt have to go through this, but if life were to suddenly get fair, i doubt it would happen in highschool :p haha have a great, rest of this friday evening! :p
^_^
I guess I cannot say that that picture does not suprise me.
one time i ate mcdonals on a couch
but i wasnt naked
danya and i were watching football
we were trying to be man-ly
🙂 hope things are well
you are a great writer brandon.. I”m sure you’ve already figured that out though..
That was a great post… minus the whole victor being naked thing : P
…why? Why must you do that? I’ll never be able to wash that from my brain. I don’t like it….
But hey, good post homie. Very deep and reflective.
I’m now going to pour chemicals into my eyes…anyone can join if they wish.
I am commenting on Victor’s nakedness… props to whoever took the picture for not getting anything except his chest and legs. And they were *not smart* take it in the first place.
oh… my… frick!
ewwwwww victor why!!!!! again!!!!!!!! what is with you and being naked!!!!! haha whatev it’s all funny. and brandon…good post, you should call me some time…seriously.
i agree with christina why always naked.
but one time victor said he is always naked even without being drunk.
brandon your a great person and you have a great heart.
and things will get better.
-jodi
that’s a pleasant picture there.
i like your display picture better. 😛
good post. you should be a writer. ah but i guess you already do that with your music and all. plus that’s my job..hehehehe. just joking.
The trio must hang out… and I mean like fully hang out, not just like hang, but like thuroughly hang all out and just have a trio day or something.
brandon I fully and totally agree with you one your philosphy. Life changes, if you want it or not. And every now and than I look back at the old days, and how much simpler they were. No droubles, no anger, no selfishness. I just miss being a kid. You just have fun and don’t worry what others have to say about you.
You are a great writer, and I wouldn’t be suprised if you go in that job direction.
Hope to hear from you soon.
ps. why did you have to put that picture up of Vic. Now I have to take out my eyes and wash them. And let myself be hypnotiesed, that I never saw Vic that way.
I HAVE JUST BEEN….OFFICIALLY SCARRED.
thanks for that brandon :p
hah. oh gawd. so no idea what shazbot means..but thanks? lol
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you are pretty much the deepest guy i know. i wish i could be like that..
xoxo-Ash
Yeah I want a Biggy Fries, and give me some SHIT to DRINK!!
you know..i hope you don’t mind if i copy you and get a chatterbox..cause..i’m getting one.. whether you like it or not. mua ha ha. however, if there is a problem concerning this matter…………my people will talk to your people…………..
okey dokey
well actually, i decided on a play list instead..i love music. love it. love it love it love it.