Things have been quiet lately. Can’t tell if it’s the calm before the storm, the calm after the storm or if the storm is actually happening right now and I’m just entirely oblivious to it. I’ve been feeling something though lately but not sure what it is exactly. Part of me wants to say I’ve […]
Wow times flies… I spent most of this summer working like a maniac at my most least favourite job of all time. Hate to say it but this summer sucked. I was miserable big time. I could hardly even find the motivation to pick up my guitar. That’s usually a good indicator of my state […]
I can’t breathe. And it’s not just the disgusting amount of cigarettes I’ve been smoking lately. The very air around me feels crippling. I feel surrounded by toxicity. Yet it’s exclusive. It seems to be the atmosphere I spew out unintentionally. I’m not unconscious to it. I know it’s there. I just don’t know how […]
I can’t believe I’ve gone 4 months without a new entry. That’s nuts. It doesn’t feel as if that much time has passed but there it is, clear as can be. I’m really starting to learn a lesson in what kind of results can be achieved by applying a consistent effort over time. Whether they’re good […]
I’m finding the mentality I’m achieving these days beneficial although it still leaves plenty of room for thought and question. I suppose one of the biggest struggles I have right now is the concept of “settling.” What is settling? I suppose it’s the concept of accepting something as the best it is going to get […]
I can feel myself changing in a manner I don’t think I’ve ever quite experienced before. This metamorphosis is thrilling but also comes with reservation. I’ve never been a fan of simply letting old things go yet this time around, that need is starting to fade. Its as if I somehow want to let them […]
As I continue to live my present life, I find myself increasingly haunted by the past and how it affects my present, along with my present and how it affects my future. What I know and what I feel are two very separate things. What I feel seems real but is ultimately fake and what […]
I blogged a lot when I was younger using Xanga but as the blogging online became much more evolved through mediums such as WordPress and others, Xanga became obsolete and I didn’t have the patience to become acquainted with new blogging software. Then a beautiful thing happened where Xanga archived all my posts from all […]
I realized something the other day that hit me pretty hard. You always know a realization is good when it’s got some kick to it. Unfortunately though, the kick does hurt, even if it is enlightening. See I had this idea in my head of the most wonderful place I could possibly imagine. I could […]
I never wanted to admit that my abuse of something so frequently over the years, would eventually take a tremendous toll on my body, mind and life. For as long as I can remember I’ve shrugged it off as something that I hadn’t done enough to be worried about it. I thought to myself that […]