so perhaps I may keep xanga a little longer then I had orignally planned.
well were approaching the end of this school year, and sadly my last year. you don’t hear to many people complain about grading and I never did, until a few months ago. I guess I just realized how much I’m going to miss all these people that I’ve grown up with for years and am now, NOT going to see everyday like I always did. I feel almost as if I took them for granted for all these years, and now its to late, I can’t go back and change anything, I just have to accept what is happening and move on with it.
oh man there are so many memories from HCS. from grade 2 until grade 12, I can’t even begin to imagine how long it would take me to review all of them. student council retreats, birthday parties, high school drama, love, hate, relationships…the list goes on…forever.
everything that mattered before is slowly loosing its importance in my life. all these things that had such a grip on my life, things that just wouldn’t let me move on with anything…they are slowly leaving and I’m feeling better.
I cant talk about it anymore, because its something that seems like its “off limits” now or something unbelievabley strange like that. I think there will always be a part of me thats thankful that it all happened and part of me that wishes I had never turned around the one day. either way, it’s something that will stick with me for a long time yet I’m sure.
I’ve been moping around in this depressive state for the last few months now. just the whole thought of grading seemed like some pathetic tragety I had to undergo in order to advance into what they call “real life”. I have so many regrets, so many things I wanted to do and will now never get the chance to do them. I guess I should just be thankful for what I have to take with me into life.
sometimes I just miss the old days, where everything seemed to be so much easier, carefree or normal maybe? even if it really wasn’t, at least it felt that way. I dont know what the word is. all I know is there used to be a time where things seemed so right.
oh but what a deceptive fairy tale we live in.
I like ranting like this, I think I’ll do it more often, even if no one reads this, at least I’ll get a chance to be emo every once and awhile and express my thoughts and feelings on an online journey for your viewing pleasure. anyways I’ll see all you kids at morning star next year.
kids, haha….yes your nothing but mindless children mwahaha.
thought I was gone for good eh? think again. I’ll never be gone, I own that school. wERD. haha?
-Brandon
you’re darn right you do. and me too. we used to be the kings of that school.
we’ll be there next year, rockin it up like it’s 1985…or theres a sale on lotion day… or something.
Dude, you’re always welcome back here. Seriously I’ll get bored without you to ramble on about music and babes with.
we’re all gonna miss you and the other grads at the school. be sure to come by and visit!
kids eh.. hmm ill win if we argure about that one..
anyway not looking forward to you not being here but i will surive…
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you’re back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you’d be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore
weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I’d crumble
you think I’d lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give
and I’ll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I’m not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I’m saving all my loving
for someone who’s loving me
heheh anyway i love you
Haha. Ashley’s so funny. I love that song.
But aside from that…
Yeah, buddy. Yeah.
You’re not skipping my class.
I’m skipping yours.
Howdya like them apples.
Glad to see your still kicking around on xanga.
Gives me something to read.
Aside from the grade 8’s terribly done homework.
yay youre keeping it…it’s impossible to leave xanga..and i’m not even joking, it’s addictive :]
even though you never comment me back, i still will read your posts and comment you.
i hope after you graduate it will be a great experience and that you keep in touch with everyone.
-jodi
HAHAHA MR TONN HAHAHA
you people and your nerdy xanga sites…
lol woot. lol I like your site. tee hee
haha mr tonn is random..howdya like them apples..i was laughing out loud..no joking..
still advertising for you brando
you may have a potential fan already.
you have many fans already